Friday, 11 November 2011


woww.. There is nothing much that I can say at this moment..
I just wanted to say that I AM HAPPY :)
I really appreciate those who are happy for my happiness..

my life is like a rainbow when you are with me :)

I am proudly to introduce you all about someone special..someone who is able to cheer me up again..


gheeee :) I don't really have his single picture because he dislike to take his own picture.. huhhh..
Nevermind.. I did few photo shots during skype sayang..gheeee..jgn mrh :) ehehe

hehe..cute bha pic ni..relax~ kkk?
sorry..curi2 snap..nasiblah..haha

Bha, that's all about my LOVE aka BUDDY :)

ake malak eko :)

Sunday, 16 October 2011


I am a happy go lucky girl and I will always be. Although I have been through so much troubles in my life, I still can be myself again. It may takes time but in the end, I'm still a happy person. I love being myself though. But at the same time, I am trying so hard not to be in trouble again. SERIOUSLY! 
I want to be like this girl in this picture. For me, she is a happy person and take things easy. I mean, although there are a lot of problems to go thourgh, but she still can relax. I mean, being easy and cool about it. Don't let trouble change our personality. Huhh! That's what I've learnt from my past. Just because my problems, I've change to a very quiet person, I guess so. -_- opps!
Anyway, just stay cool people (and myself too) ghee :)
end with smile :)

Sunday, 9 October 2011

A friend of mine~

You will always be my friend even though you hate me
because I believe that you won't hate me that much :)
I really learned a lot of things from my past this time.. Especially its from him, starting from him, when we first broke up.. Although its hurt me badly but it actually turns out to be something good.. POSITIVE! I really want to thank him because he ever appeared in one of  my chapters. It is not a wasting of time actually. I now understand why we broke up.. Why do we have to separate. I really do understand now but its just too late for me. I know he don't like to see  me any more, that I understand.. Yeah, I sound so sad. But, actually its not sad any more.. Its all about grateful.. because I get to know him, used to loved by him and taught me so much.

He taught me so much and I only realize that after we were done with our relationship. I think I am more mature now, less hang out with my friends which he were always dislike.. I still remember when he always mad at me whenever I go out with my friends included my own best friends. And I must be back before 9pm! haha! He also dislike it when I always online especially when it comes to "face booking". We were always argue about that because I almost everyday would fb. I was so stubborn last time..huhh? haha :D. By the way, not any more though. I were always excited whenever we want to meet up. I can feel that I act like a childish when we meet up. And I also always merajuk after we quarrel..haixxxyah! I am so bad towards him before. I never care about how was his feeling been hurt by me last time. Because I was in my own world, with my own rules of life..huhh! 

Yeah, that was me, a few months ago. But now.. Everything that I want to do will always remind me of him. Its not that I want to return back but its just that he were always in my head.. haah~ lol.. You see, whenever I want to go out with my classmates and besties, I always remind myself to be back before 9pm. And when it comes to facebook, I must not always online unless to see my class schedule.. At this moment, I'm having a relationship with a new guy and I don't really show that I am so excited any more.. I mean, I am totally change now..because of you.. 
Thank you so much friend :)

I will always remember your advices Dhant.. Now I understand that you came in my life just for a while to teach me lessons about this life. I thank you Dhant.. I am grateful because we used to love each other. It is okay now for me because I accept it..the fact that we don't have that relationship any more.. 

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

What I feel at this moment..

I quit, from every activity..buat masa inilah.. Entahlah.. Apa nak jadi sudah.. I don't feel like myself any more.. This is the first time I feel like this.. I realize what I did was wrong and I really2 regret about that. Such a fool girl! Inilah yang dinamakan sudah kena baru nak bertaubat.. That's what I feel   right now and what I faced now. Kadang2 rasa nak saja dunia ini berhenti dan biarkan I fix everything. But that is impossible to happen though. Only God can do that, can stop the world without us realize it. 
Somehow I just need a long vacation. I wish I can just stay at home town for the whole holiday. 
I have had enough of troubles because I am a trouble maker. Am I? 
Am I that bad? Or is it just because of my curiousity? Pleaselahh!! I know I am not this kind of girl back then. 
I know I am a good girl who only disobey some rules, some basic rules. 
I know I am a girl who afraid of her own mother.
I know I am a girl who think twice before do something bad.
I know I am girl who never do something extraordinary.
I am just a girl who had walk out from her shell and wanted to do everything that she had seen before!!!
I came here, a new life, no one knows about my nerdy, good girl life time.
Yeah. I guess that is!! 
A new life for a nerdy to live on. A nerd who never do that, do this. A nerd who had never experience anything that a teenager face. 

Monday, 12 September 2011

Finally, a smile on my face :)

I really2 want to thank everyone around me because now I can smile again!
Like seriously, it had been 7 months I never smile like this.
7 months ago, my life was empty, hopeless, confuse all the time..
7 months ago, I always cried every night before I go to bed..
My life during that period of time was nothing.. Every time I wake up, it is like a new day for me BUT when it comes to night time, I started to cry again..hurmphhh...
There were so many to think about, to figure out and it never solve.
BUT now..
I feel like crying because only by now, only after 7 months, only after that long time of period I've been suffer, 
The real QUELICE who loves to smile, happy-go-lucky person
no  more crying before go to bed
able to smile every morning
able to do her homework
able to concentrate on her work
able to jump like a crazy monkey!! haha :D

Thank you!
Thank you GOD for this second chance.. Thank you because I am still alive. I know what I did was a stupid decision. I still have a long journey to go through..
Thank you mummy because you always support me..I know I am the black sheep in our family, I realize what I did was horrible.. 
Thank you friends!! Thank you classmates for you LOVES, SUPPORT. Girls! Thank you, like seriously, kak Pris, thank you for your love, Lisia, thank you for your concern. I really appreciate that.. :) Thank you bestie Alice, Diana, & Mag :) Diana, tq sangat2..
My sweet lectures Miss Jessica & Madam Sha, you guys are the BEST, like a sister for me though ^^
Big sis, sis Shirl, sis Gwen~ thank you so much! my bro, bro Simon, tq for your advices, bro James tq so much.. Tq also cousin Cammie..
It took a long timne to recover though..
It's hard too...
But now, I am grateful for everything that had happened..

soy cheese everyone!!
smile like me, haha :)

Saturday, 10 September 2011

♥ saturday ♥

What I did on my Saturday for this week? hurmph.. Not so much though.. hehe.. Took some photos and watch Bollywood movies!! yaaay!! awesome! :)
Here, some  photos that I took.. HAHA

Sorry lar..haha
This is my blog and my life lar...

I found some of my little brother's pictures..

adorable little brother :)

Sunday, 4 September 2011

Goodbye 5th September

5th September..
today is the day where me and penyamun suppose to celebrate our 1rst anniversary..
he's gone now..
I still don't understand why he REALLY dump me..
hurmphh... -_-
I know he was lying when he said he had to break up with me because we are cousins.
yeah right!! He never care about that issue when he was lovy dovy with me..
BUT?? now?
He mentioned it. yeah. complicated..

I decited to let go of him now..
That's why I'm saying goodbye to him..
goodbye to all our sweet, damn, bad, memories..
goodbye to everything that related to you penyamun..
goodbye 5th September 2010's love..
goodbye J..

haha~ just for fun!


This is a story of a man who suddenly appear in my life. Yeah, he makes me happy so far and he makes me forget about the penyamun, u know who is he :) Ok..where to start hoh?
Anyway, we have not really put our relationship status in FB yet because of some problems occurred. So, you guys can't view who is he. But, i'll post his picture in my blog though. Anyway, let us just call him Superman. I called him superman because he saves me :) Saves me from stuck in penyamun's world :) haha..I am so mean here right?
What to do..huhu..
I really hope Superman can be better than penyamun though..huhh..

That' all for today :)
Nah, superman 

Thursday, 1 September 2011

tick tock

tick tock..
that's the only thing in my mind now..
counting days..
for what? for many reasons..
counting for stupid 5th of September..
counting for holiday to be end..
counting to go back to college..
counting for my life which is soon going to be a disaster......

I know what will happen as soon I am back to college..
I have strong feeling that tells me that my life is going too be such a BIG disaster soon.. Oh no.. end of my life... I might lose my family, friends and even my FUTURE!!
Yeah.. I better say goodbye here first before I don't get to say it.. because I plan to run away from this world as soon as my life is going to be miserable..

I can't take any of these burden, problems in my mind.. I can't.. I will give up.. That's all I can do in my life now...
YES. This girl will gone soon..very soon.O love u mummy and daddy..

Wednesday, 31 August 2011


Hola.. It's September now.. I wish this month will be more fun and great than the others :) gheee
*I'm in LOVE mood right now*
This is new and latest love story of mine 

WELL.. Here we go..
I called him B because his blood type is B.
Have you watched the Korean love story entitled " My BF is B Blood Type" ?
Our story a little bit similar like in the movie because I am A blood type, same goes to the girl in the movie. Plus, I have short hair now like her's.

Anyway, I found out that this guy quite fun. Romantic and he never have much gf before like what I did. yeah. I was a playgirl BEfore ok..

I think, maybe, yes, he could be so much adventurous if only I hook up with him. Yeah. Our r/ship might be quite challenging if we'll hook up..haha! so Miss perasan me!

From now on, I won't find a guy with a very good looking anymore, they are SUCK and they don't love. They stick with me because I'm pretty (haha!).Well, u know? Handsome and pretty, perfect match.. urghh!!! What a package! NOPE!

GO away you handsome guy!! SHuhhhh!
 Bis awesome so far. and HE IS SAGITTARIUS!!! haha!
Sot me, believe in such thing BUT it's quite fun though..haha~
I've been looking for this Sagittarius for long time besides ARIES..
YAAY! match with me, LEO!

Alright, I stop here and I'll tell you guys the latest hot news about me!! gheee :)

WAIT, my sagittarous sign!!

here, LEO and SAGITTARIUS :)

I'm awake!!!

You know what? I rasa I dah terperangkap selama ini, terpukau by YOU. Yes. DD. 
I think everything make sense now. Yeah.
GOD have a great plan for me. Amazing future for me. No wonder HE won't let us to be together BECAUSE
you are not meant for me DD. Opps!
It takes a long time for me to realize that WE ARE NOT MEANT TOGETHER. And how stupid am I doing so much stupid things just for you and in fact you never care of what I did. Because that was not LOVE. Oh my.. what a BIG mistake I had done ever since 7 months ago. Today is 1rst of September! 4 more days is going to be our anniversary (suppose to but I don't think it is now)

DD, I'm over you! We never understand each other. Based on our horoscope too. Both of us? is a big NO right now.

I am don't hate you BUT I am regretting of what we had done. Oh how I wish I could tell you this:
" menyesal la pasal kita dua. ewww!! rasa nak muntah la!! DD, sorry. I rasa I kena pukau sbab u handsome dulu kot.. Tp I sedar now that we two x pernah memahami sesama sendiri because we two are ego and again, sorry. Just forget about what had happened between us and pretend that we xpernah on ok?" 

DD, If u baca ni, u bacalah sampai habis sbab nak jumpa u pun i x mahu and u pun memang x akan jumpa i pun. if i nak text u pun, rasa malas jak nak type msg ngan u sebab I DAH MALAS dengan u. yeah.
Baguslah if u nak pindah g Mukah, aman dunia ku :) BYE DD!! gheeee..

Tuesday, 30 August 2011


Last year raya, I was wearing dress.. Same goes to my bestfriends..
Last year raya was so happening..
Last year raya we were together..
but then...
last year raya with him.. :'(
do you still remember this child? I saw her yesterday whe I went to dayang's house again for raya..x sempat ambil gmbr with her because she is so naughty now..hehe..
This year I'm alone Dhant..
I still remember how happy was my life before..during and everything!
here I am now..with no you by my side like what you've promise..
promise to be with me no matter what happen..
but then..
the promise just left like that..

Monday, 29 August 2011


Basically, i've been officially single since 8 months ago..
and that was so hurt..really like seriously!

Anyway.. I don't know what but this is my situation right now.
- I may be sound like DESPERATE but I don't think so because I do have a little bit feeling towards this guy
- I'm afraid the only reason I'll hook with this guy just because I wanted to forget Dhant. BUT??
- I'm afraid I might hurt by this guy. YESS!!

So, I don't really know whether is it LOVE or just admire or friend? His name is Wenz. 
He is such a sweet guy (so far).. But I REALLY DONT KNOW now..
there is one thing that I know..we started to be so close a few months ago..yes, now we always texting and it is in the same month with Dhant where we started to be so close!!! I think there might be something wrong if only I hook with Wenz..but...again, who knows right?

But, for sure, let it be and I'll just follow the flow..

Wednesday, 17 August 2011


Ada yang cakap cinta itu indah..
Ada yang cakap cinta itu sengsara..
Ketika hati ini sedih kerna dikecewakan
Segalanya telah tertutup..
Pintu ini yang dahulunya terbuka hanya untuk mu
Kini tutup semula, tutup dengan begitu rapatnya..
Ada yang cakap hidup ini harus diteruskan biarpun hati telah terluka..
Ada yang cakap masih ada lagi yang terbaik di luar sana yang suatu hari nanti akan datang..
Hati ini telah pun tertutup..
Tertutup dengan eratnya..
Oleh kerna kekecewaan yang dihadapi,
Penderitaan yang ditanggung,
Kesedihan yang berpanjangan..
Aku sememangnya ingin melepaskan segalanya..
Telah ku cuba..
Bayangan wajahmu sering menghantui diri ini..
Segalanya berkaitan dengan dirimu..
Apa yang kulakukan, dimana ku berada,
Segalanya sering berkaitan dengan mu..
Bagaimana lagi caranya untuk tidak mengiingati mu?
Hati ini memang ingin melupakan segala yang ada kaitan denganmu
Engkau sering ada di dalam fikiran ku..
Aku membuat keputusan..
Aku akan tetap mencintamu..
Tetap mencintaimu dengan setulus hati..
Tuhan saja yang tahu apa yang terkandung dalam isi hatiku ini..
Tuhan saja yang tahu betapa ku mencintaimu..
Mencintaimu yang menolak ku, menyakiti hatiku..
Sampai memutih rambutku akan ku cintaimu..
Salam sayang padamu Jordan..

Tuesday, 16 August 2011


I really miss the old me though. I miss the old Q yang selalu kena buli by her own classmate. Since mula2 masuk school lagi. Because I was a fat dump girl in class back then. I selalu kena suruh buat ini, buat itu. What to do, I just follow their order. Yes, I do have bestfriends but we were not that much close before. Someday my bestfriends took me for granted. Kind of sad but that was before, we were still in a new relationship. That's why we belum lagi so close like we are right now. I miss the old me yang langsung tak tahu anythin. I don't know what is love, smoke, drink, social life, hang out and what so ever lar! Sometimes, bila diingatkan semula, apa yang terjadi dengan I sekarang sebab I terlalu daring. Ever siince I masuk secondary school, I slalu kena buli ok, I pendam semua perasaan itu. I diabaikan, no one know about me. No one cares about me, why? Because I was fat and dump girl. But now? I dare to do something that the girls who used to bullied me so that they would respect me. So that I was accepted. So that I could be in their group. BULLSHIT that! Just because of that, I had ruined my life! I had lost my happiness! EVERYTHING! I do hate my self sometimes because of my own behaviour. I never think twice. BUT, apa la sangat budak gemuk ini boleh buat? All I wanted was to be accepted. I cuma nak hentikan semua orang ketawakan I. I nak hentikan orang memandang rendah terhadap I. That's all I wanted 6 years ago. And now it turns out to be worst. Worst than I ever imagined my life was.

How it used to be

I remember how it used to be
when nothing else matter but you and me
music, country roads, and future dreams.

I miss you, I wish you could see
although you are here, I miss you and me.

I remember when you said how happy I made you
and you really meant, it's just a phrase
you say without thinking.

I miss those days when you'd call just to say "hi"
or "I love you"...the days it was so hard
just to say good-bye for a while.

I remember how wonderful it felt the first time
you held me in your arms-and how after all those
years you still made my heart melt.

I miss the old you- and the old me
The old us that could just sit and talk for hours
and never run out of things to say.

I remember when time simply stood still-
when in each other's arms is the only place
we wanted to be...forever.

I miss us as I remember how it used to be...
when nothing else matter but you and me.

Messages for you

Aku tahu engkau sudah mempunyai penganti..
I know that because I can feel it..
I think I am right about that..
I tahu dan I rasa sangat sakit..sedih menyelubungi..sadness all around me.. Whenever I hear about you, I akan terus berasa sangat sedih..Sebab I teringat masa2 yang pernah kita lalui dulu..
Seandainya englau mempunyai penganti sekarang,
cuma satu yang ku pinta..
Jangan sakiti dia..
Jangan perlakukan dia seperti mana kau lakukan pada diriku..
Jangan membuat dia merana..
Jangan pernah menipu dia..
Jangan pernah memainkan perasaan dia..

Cukuplah hanya diriku yang tangging segalanya..
Cukuplah hanya diriku yang menjadi mangsa mu..
Cukuplah hanya diriku yang merana kernamu..
Cukuplah hanya diriku yang menangis setiap malam..

Semestinya..berbahagialah u dengan dia..
Ingat, jangan pernah menyakiti seorang gadis lagi..

Questions that I really want to ask you..

Adakah salah untuk mencintai seseorang yang tidak mungkin akan mencintai kita semula?
Adakah diriku ini sungguh hina sehingga engkau sangat membenci diriku?
Adakah engkau sangat menyampah apabila melihat diriku ini yang suatu ketika dulu kau cinta?
Adakah aku tidak mungkin akan dimaafkan?
Mengapa engkau katakan engkau sanggup untuk bersama dengan ku sampai bila2 suatu ketika dulu?
Mengapakah engkau berjanji tidak akan pernah meninggalkan ku?
Mengapa engkau mempunyai terlalu banyak alasan untuk memutuskan hubungan kita?
Mengapakah engkau begitu kejam terhadap diriku sekarang?
Mengapakah engkau begitu mencintai diriku suatu ketika dulu?
Mengapa engkau tidak pernah terfikir akan perkara ini?
Adakah cintamu terhadapku dahulu hanyalah palsu?
Adakah semuanya hanyalah lakonan semata-mata?
Mengapa engkau melakukan semua ini?
Mengapa engkau begini?
Engkau menggelakkan daripada berjumpa dengan ku?
Tolonglah jumpa diriku ini buat kali terakhir..
Jikalau ada permulaannya, pasti ada pengakhirannya..

This is how I feel..

Take me away to a better place
A place that there were no one that I know
A place that far away from this place
A place that where I can start over again
So that I won't stuck with my past
So that I won't remember any of my past events

Take me away to January
I'm done with this year already
A year that full of sadness, frustrated, disappointment
I just want to move on from this year
I had enough of pain throughout this year
I had enough of suffer throughout this year
It was hard to go through this year again because it's all started in the beginning of the year

Anyone out there?
Who can take me away?
Any way?
Any solution?
That can take me away?

This is not just about you
Yes, you are include too in my story
but in certain chapter
This is all about me
Yes, obviously because this is my life
My life which is very, so full of adventurous
happiness, sadness, shocking and a lot more.

A Silent Tear

Silent words across a screen.
How could they mean so much to me.
I promised myself I would not cry.
Then a silent tear falls from my eye.
What did I do, what did I say,
To make you change your mind, the day you went away.
Everyday, waiting for a sign
To let me know, you might still want to be mind.
Another day comes and goes,
I want to write, but I can’t, I know.
You said you needed me more than I needed you,
Why would you say that, if you knew it wasn’t true?
Why did you say you loved me?
Then turn around and set me free?
I love you and want you,
But I know I can’t make you love me.