p u r p l e v a l e n t i n e

hello people!!!


It's been a while.. So, whaddup? haha..


Anyway, I am so haaapppppppppppy at this moment because I got a new gadget to play with which is my new Sony Ericsson camera!!! hehe


I named her PURPLEVALENTINE since it is in february month aka Valentine month.. And she is in purple colour!! But sometimes she looks like in blue.. I don't know but I'll say it PURPLE, full stop! haha..


She was born on 19th February 2012. ooooo... Actually, I bought this camee just to please myself, to cheer up my mood because that was the date when I started to be single and it's been a year.. Anyway, it works! I knew God will always help me to cheer me up! hehe.. He gave me an idea to buy something that benefit me a lot, A LOTT! haha


Well, that's all for today and tooooduLLLL! -full stop-

p u r p l e v a l e n t i n e

crack!!! it's me :)

I saw your relationship status. It's complicated gik ya. So, dalam masa we broke up ni, u mmg dah ada someone else la? So, this is the main reason why u nak break up dulu? So that u will be able to be with other girl ka? I dont know. I just guessing because I saw your r/ship status bha.

I still remember that you said you xnak ada gf. But why it is complicated? I'm sorry. I'm too emo at this moment.

It's almost one year since you've left me behind ok. You sedar x tu? You ni ada perasaan atau tak? U tau ka dalam blog jak I brani express my feeling walaupun I really want to tell you all these.. But I never get a chance to. You scared me away bha. I admit it, I still have feeling towards you, obviously.

At least la we become friend ok. At least you talk to me. Bkn angp I ni mcm stranger, like nothing ever happen between us ok. I x tahu la u ni, I x sangka ur prangai blh jd sampai mcm ni.

Every day I pray so that you will be able to see to feel what I've been through. Every night, before I go to sleep, I pray so that you won't be so EGO! And every moment, I pray that I can forget YOU! I need to.. I don't want to have you in my memory. Because I know how hurt it is.

Do you know that how much of tears have I cried? It's uncountable ok. I don't know how you survive happily while someone else is suffering.

God, help me. Amen.

Tell me.........

Tell me,

How do you do now?

Tell me,

What’s on your mind now?

Tell me,

Do you miss me?

Tell me,

Do you still love me?

Yes, do you love me?

Please.. Don’t think about others first.

 I beg you. I beg you to let go of those problems.

Think about your feeling first..

Only for this time, tell me how do you feel now?

How do you feel if you see me?

Yes, do you happy with everything that you’ve done? With your decision?

Sorry..

If these questions make you feel uneasy again..

I’m just curious..

Curiosity to know about your feeling, after what happened..

Because my feeling towards you is still the same..

Yeah.. I’ve tried to forget everything..about you..

But......

I tried not to look at your eyes..

I tried not to see you..

I tried not to hear your voice..

I tried not to think about you..

I have tried so hard..............

just a little bit about christmas

HOLLA! Happy New Year 2012!! And here I am in IPG once again.. It's good to be back anyway.. Plus it's a new year, a good start for a new life for me..Yup.. Yeah, just got here and watched 'Ombak Rindu' the movie.. Well.. Not bad.. How I wish my love story will end happily just like that.. Anyway, the song theme for this movie is so nice though because I can actually relate it to my life.. Here..

Ombak Rindu

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Nice right? I told ya..


There's nothing much to say about my Christmas holiday anyway.. Everything was seem to be.... I don't know how to say it or describe it.. It's just happened deep in my heart. Well, I am sure you guys know what or how is it feel when something awful happen and you don't have any idea how to say it.. You only can feel it but speechless. That's what I felt. 


Thank God I still have my friends, family and Wen who cheer me up during Christmas. Yeah. I might say that I still feel sad whenever I see him. Yup. I try not to look in his eyes or even talk to him. I did it. As he pass by me, I ignored him like I never know him before. I have to do that or else.. You know what will happen. That's the only way I can choose to live with. 


I will. And that's what I did last Christmas. I also didn't wish him during his birthday at all. I know this is the best for both of us. He used to say that he doesn't want to have any relationship with me, not at all. So, I guess, our relationship as cousin or family also does't mean anything. I guess that's it. 

L.O.V.E

woww.. There is nothing much that I can say at this moment..
I just wanted to say that I AM HAPPY :)
I really appreciate those who are happy for my happiness..

my life is like a rainbow when you are with me :)

I am proudly to introduce you all about someone special..someone who is able to cheer me up again..

SAMUEL SIBAT (wen)

gheeee :) I don't really have his single picture because he dislike to take his own picture.. huhhh..
Nevermind.. I did few photo shots during skype sayang..gheeee..jgn mrh :) ehehe

hehe..cute bha pic ni..relax~ kkk?

sorry..curi2 snap..nasiblah..haha

Bha, that's all about my LOVE aka BUDDY :)

WEN..

ake malak eko :)

ALWAYS BE HAPPY

I am a happy go lucky girl and I will always be. Although I have been through so much troubles in my life, I still can be myself again. It may takes time but in the end, I'm still a happy person. I love being myself though. But at the same time, I am trying so hard not to be in trouble again. SERIOUSLY! 

RELAX~

I want to be like this girl in this picture. For me, she is a happy person and take things easy. I mean, although there are a lot of problems to go thourgh, but she still can relax. I mean, being easy and cool about it. Don't let trouble change our personality. Huhh! That's what I've learnt from my past. Just because my problems, I've change to a very quiet person, I guess so. -_- opps!

Anyway, just stay cool people (and myself too) ghee :)

end with smile :)

A friend of mine~

You will always be my friend even though you hate me
because I believe that you won't hate me that much :)

I really learned a lot of things from my past this time.. Especially its from him, starting from him, when we first broke up.. Although its hurt me badly but it actually turns out to be something good.. POSITIVE! I really want to thank him because he ever appeared in one of  my chapters. It is not a wasting of time actually. I now understand why we broke up.. Why do we have to separate. I really do understand now but its just too late for me. I know he don't like to see  me any more, that I understand.. Yeah, I sound so sad. But, actually its not sad any more.. Its all about grateful.. because I get to know him, used to loved by him and taught me so much.

LOVE u FRIEND

He taught me so much and I only realize that after we were done with our relationship. I think I am more mature now, less hang out with my friends which he were always dislike.. I still remember when he always mad at me whenever I go out with my friends included my own best friends. And I must be back before 9pm! haha! He also dislike it when I always online especially when it comes to "face booking". We were always argue about that because I almost everyday would fb. I was so stubborn last time..huhh? haha :D. By the way, not any more though. I were always excited whenever we want to meet up. I can feel that I act like a childish when we meet up. And I also always merajuk after we quarrel..haixxxyah! I am so bad towards him before. I never care about how was his feeling been hurt by me last time. Because I was in my own world, with my own rules of life..huhh! 

Yeah, that was me, a few months ago. But now.. Everything that I want to do will always remind me of him. Its not that I want to return back but its just that he were always in my head.. haah~ lol.. You see, whenever I want to go out with my classmates and besties, I always remind myself to be back before 9pm. And when it comes to facebook, I must not always online unless to see my class schedule.. At this moment, I'm having a relationship with a new guy and I don't really show that I am so excited any more.. I mean, I am totally change now..because of you.. 

Thank you so much friend :)

I will always remember your advices Dhant.. Now I understand that you came in my life just for a while to teach me lessons about this life. I thank you Dhant.. I am grateful because we used to love each other. It is okay now for me because I accept it..the fact that we don't have that relationship any more..