NEW LOVE STORY

Hola.. It's September now.. I wish this month will be more fun and great than the others :) gheee
*I'm in LOVE mood right now*
This is new and latest love story of mine ♥

WELL.. Here we go..
I called him B because his blood type is B.
Have you watched the Korean love story entitled " My BF is B Blood Type" ?
Our story a little bit similar like in the movie because I am A blood type, same goes to the girl in the movie. Plus, I have short hair now like her's.


Anyway, I found out that this guy quite fun. Romantic and he never have much gf before like what I did. yeah. I was a playgirl BEfore ok..


I think, maybe, yes, he could be so much adventurous if only I hook up with him. Yeah. Our r/ship might be quite challenging if we'll hook up..haha! so Miss perasan me!


From now on, I won't find a guy with a very good looking anymore, they are SUCK and they don't love. They stick with me because I'm pretty (haha!).Well, u know? Handsome and pretty, perfect match.. urghh!!! What a package! NOPE!

GO away you handsome guy!! SHuhhhh!
 Bis awesome so far. and HE IS SAGITTARIUS!!! haha!
Sot me, believe in such thing BUT it's quite fun though..haha~
I've been looking for this Sagittarius for long time besides ARIES..
YAAY! match with me, LEO!


Alright, I stop here and I'll tell you guys the latest hot news about me!! gheee :)


WAIT, my sagittarous sign!!

here, LEO and SAGITTARIUS :)

I'm awake!!!

You know what? I rasa I dah terperangkap selama ini, terpukau by YOU. Yes. DD. 
I think everything make sense now. Yeah.
GOD have a great plan for me. Amazing future for me. No wonder HE won't let us to be together BECAUSE
you are not meant for me DD. Opps!

It takes a long time for me to realize that WE ARE NOT MEANT TOGETHER. And how stupid am I doing so much stupid things just for you and in fact you never care of what I did. Because that was not LOVE. Oh my.. what a BIG mistake I had done ever since 7 months ago. Today is 1rst of September! 4 more days is going to be our anniversary (suppose to but I don't think it is now)


DD, I'm over you! We never understand each other. Based on our horoscope too. Both of us? NOOO..it is a big NO right now.


I am don't hate you BUT I am regretting of what we had done. Oh how I wish I could tell you this:
" menyesal la pasal kita dua. ewww!! rasa nak muntah la!! DD, sorry. I rasa I kena pukau sbab u handsome dulu kot.. Tp I sedar now that we two x pernah memahami sesama sendiri because we two are ego and again, sorry. Just forget about what had happened between us and pretend that we xpernah on ok?" 


DD, If u baca ni, u bacalah sampai habis sbab nak jumpa u pun i x mahu and u pun memang x akan jumpa i pun. if i nak text u pun, rasa malas jak nak type msg ngan u sebab I DAH MALAS dengan u. yeah.
Baguslah if u nak pindah g Mukah, aman dunia ku :) BYE DD!! gheeee..

RAYA

Last year raya, I was wearing dress.. Same goes to my bestfriends..
Last year raya was so happening..
Last year raya we were together..
but then...

last year raya with him.. :'(

do you still remember this child? I saw her yesterday whe I went to dayang's house again for raya..x sempat ambil gmbr with her because she is so naughty now..hehe..
This year I'm alone Dhant..
I still remember how happy was my life before..during raya..christmas and everything!
here I am now..with no you by my side like what you've promise..
promise to be with me no matter what happen..
but then..
the promise just left like that..

HAPPY RAYA...

IS IT LOVE?

Basically, i've been officially single since 8 months ago..
and that was so hurt..really like seriously!


Anyway.. I don't know what but this is my situation right now.
- I may be sound like DESPERATE but I don't think so because I do have a little bit feeling towards this guy
- I'm afraid the only reason I'll hook with this guy just because I wanted to forget Dhant. BUT??
- I'm afraid I might hurt by this guy. YESS!!


So, I don't really know whether is it LOVE or just admire or friend? His name is Wenz. 
He is such a sweet guy (so far).. But I REALLY DONT KNOW now..
there is one thing that I know..we started to be so close a few months ago..yes, now we always texting and it is in the same month with Dhant where we started to be so close!!! I think there might be something wrong if only I hook with Wenz..but...again, who knows right?

But, for sure, let it be and I'll just follow the flow..

THIS IS MY CINTA :)

Ada yang cakap cinta itu indah..

Ada yang cakap cinta itu sengsara..

Ketika hati ini sedih kerna dikecewakan

Segalanya telah tertutup..

Pintu ini yang dahulunya terbuka hanya untuk mu

Kini tutup semula, tutup dengan begitu rapatnya..

Ada yang cakap hidup ini harus diteruskan biarpun hati telah terluka..

Ada yang cakap masih ada lagi yang terbaik di luar sana yang suatu hari nanti akan datang..

NAMUN..

Hati ini telah pun tertutup..

Tertutup dengan eratnya..

Oleh kerna kekecewaan yang dihadapi,

Penderitaan yang ditanggung,

Kesedihan yang berpanjangan..

Aku sememangnya ingin melepaskan segalanya..

Telah ku cuba..

NAMUN..

Bayangan wajahmu sering menghantui diri ini..

Segalanya berkaitan dengan dirimu..

Apa yang kulakukan, dimana ku berada,

Segalanya sering berkaitan dengan mu..

Bagaimana lagi caranya untuk tidak mengiingati mu?

Hati ini memang ingin melupakan segala yang ada kaitan denganmu

NAMUN..

Engkau sering ada di dalam fikiran ku..

Aku membuat keputusan..

Aku akan tetap mencintamu..

Tetap mencintaimu dengan setulus hati..

Tuhan saja yang tahu apa yang terkandung dalam isi hatiku ini..

Tuhan saja yang tahu betapa ku mencintaimu..

Mencintaimu yang menolak ku, menyakiti hatiku..

Sampai memutih rambutku akan ku cintaimu..

Salam sayang padamu Jordan..

THE OLD ME

I really miss the old me though. I miss the old Q yang selalu kena buli by her own classmate. Since mula2 masuk school lagi. Because I was a fat dump girl in class back then. I selalu kena suruh buat ini, buat itu. What to do, I just follow their order. Yes, I do have bestfriends but we were not that much close before. Someday my bestfriends took me for granted. Kind of sad but that was before, we were still in a new relationship. That's why we belum lagi so close like we are right now. I miss the old me yang langsung tak tahu anythin. I don't know what is love, smoke, drink, social life, hang out and what so ever lar! Sometimes, bila diingatkan semula, apa yang terjadi dengan I sekarang sebab I terlalu daring. Ever siince I masuk secondary school, I slalu kena buli ok, I pendam semua perasaan itu. I diabaikan, no one know about me. No one cares about me, why? Because I was fat and dump girl. But now? I dare to do something that the girls who used to bullied me so that they would respect me. So that I was accepted. So that I could be in their group. BULLSHIT that! Just because of that, I had ruined my life! I had lost my happiness! EVERYTHING! I do hate my self sometimes because of my own behaviour. I never think twice. BUT, apa la sangat budak gemuk ini boleh buat? All I wanted was to be accepted. I cuma nak hentikan semua orang ketawakan I. I nak hentikan orang memandang rendah terhadap I. That's all I wanted 6 years ago. And now it turns out to be worst. Worst than I ever imagined my life was.

How it used to be

I remember how it used to be
when nothing else matter but you and me
music, country roads, and future dreams.

I miss you, I wish you could see
although you are here, I miss you and me.

I remember when you said how happy I made you
and you really meant it...now, it's just a phrase
you say without thinking.

I miss those days when you'd call just to say "hi"
or "I love you"...the days it was so hard
just to say good-bye for a while.

I remember how wonderful it felt the first time
you held me in your arms-and how after all those
years you still made my heart melt.

I miss the old you- and the old me
The old us that could just sit and talk for hours
and never run out of things to say.

I remember when time simply stood still-
when in each other's arms is the only place
we wanted to be...forever.

I miss us as I remember how it used to be...
when nothing else matter but you and me.